I dislike mornings. Okay I said it and I admit it. I never really was a morning person. I am more of a night person. I enjoy the comforts of my warm bed and it is difficult to find the motivation to get out of it. I do spring up in the middle of the night to feed the baby or deal with children having nightmares.
I have met my match. My second oldest, despises mornings. She is a really grumpy pants in the morning. Today was no exception. My oldest happened to go into her room because she thought her sister’s alarm was not set. In her defense, yesterday the first day back after 7 days off, her alarm was not set. This put her into a tizzy. I am talking stomping feet, grunting, pouting etc. Oh Lord give me the strength to deal with this today. Help me give grace because I am so not feeling it. I just found myself saying how many more minutes she had, get dressed blah blah. Part of the problem was that she did not have her outfit picked out last night and that added to our morning drama. Lesson learned, mark my word, tonight all outfits for the rest of the week will be laid out. I think we will even pick out outfits for the weekend too.
Frankly, I am worn out by mornings and the chaos. At times, it is very difficult to manage a 6 month old, 3 year old, 5 year old, and 8 year old. They all have different needs at the same time and I am one person with 1 set of hands. If I am being honest the whole grace thing I did not do too well with it. I told my daughter that just because she woke up on the wrong side of the bed that it was not okay to try to make everyone else miserable and that the world does not revolve around her.
The thing is my oldest was giving me some issues today too. Whenever I was trying to redirect her sister, she was trying to be the second Mom. This is something she has been struggling with lately. Every time she does this, I point it out to her because it really needs to stop. Of course in return I get an attitude. Some day she will appreciate me for allowing her to be a child and not worrying about Mommy things. Plus she was in a complaining mood and not being appreciative. She was complaining about a brush. I had just ordered the Wet Brush yesterday online because they are amazing to take out knots in your hair. This drives me crazy. Our family is extremely blessed. I cannot stand it if any of my children act spoiled in anyway. Of course I respond telling her to be thankful for what we have, that she has more than most girls her age, and that there are people in this world that do not even own a brush. I will not raise spoiled entitled children that turn into adults. I am not saying my children are on that path but complaints like that get under my skin.
So my 5 year old went to school without eating breakfast. This was totally her choice. I am not sure how that is going to go today. In the car while waiting for the bus, I told her if she does this again if she is not ready on time she will attend school in her pajamas. Of course this will not happen in the future because we are going to avoid that by making sure her outfit is out the night before. I did tell her that I love her and hoped she would have a great day despite having an unhappy morning. She must have felt bad about the events because when she got on the bus she put her head down and did not look at me as I waved to her.
Sometimes it is really tough being a Mom. Honestly, a lot of the times it is tough being the parent. Yes I need my essential oils today. I need lots of them. I am going to have a hard time deciding which ones today. I should have given my children some before heading off to school. I think I will start with peppermint on my temples for an energy boost and lavender to start today. Here is to a brighter day despite the rainy weather here and rocky morning.